Adele too scared to have more children

London, Nov 2 (IANS)  Adele has revealed she suffered post-natal depression after giving birth to her son and now feels “too scared” to have another child.
She said at the time she had a baby with her long-term boyfriend, charity CEO Simon Konecki, she felt like she had made “the worst decision of my life”.
The singer, 28, said she now loves her four-year-old son, Angelo, more than anything but felt inadequate as a mother and had to spend time away from him after he was born.

She told Vanity Fair: “My knowledge of postpartum-or post-natal, as we call it in England-is that you don’t want to be with your child; you’re worried you might hurt your child; you’re worried you weren’t doing a good job.
“But I was obsessed with my child. I felt very inadequate; I felt like I’d made the worst decision of my life . . . . It can come in many different forms.
“Eventually I just said, I’m going to give myself an afternoon a week, just to do whatever the f*** I want without my baby. A friend of mine said, ‘Really? Don’t you feel bad?’ I said, ‘I do, but not as bad as I’d feel if I didn’t do it’.”
The Skyfall singer said she did not take anti-depressants and was reluctant to talk to anyone about how she was feeling.

She told the magazine: “I think it’s the bravest thing not to have a child; all my friends and I felt pressurised into having kids, because that’s what adults do.
“I love my son more than anything, but on a daily basis, if I have a minute or two, I wish I could do whatever the f*** I wanted, whenever I want. Every single day I feel like that.”
Asked about having another baby, she said the daughter Mr Konecki has from a former marriage is her “get-out-jail-free card”, adding: “I’m too scared. I had really bad postpartum depression after I had my son, and it frightened me.”
The 28-year-old also admitted she used to be a “massive drinker”, and was drunk when she wrote her hit album 21 but has stopped smoking and cut back on drinking to just two glasses of wine a week since she underwent vocal surgery.
She told the magazine: “Having a hangover with a child is torture. Just imagine an annoying three-year-old who knows something’s wrong; it’s hell.”
She said she never had any interest in drugs because someone her family knew died of a heroin overdose but added: “I used to love to be drunk.”
However she said since having a baby she is “not as carefree” as she once was.
“I’m scared of a lot of things now because I don’t want to die; I want to be around for my kid.”
She also spoke of how her stage fright is so bad that she may never tour again.
The frank interview came as she is in the middle of her Adele Live tour to promote her album, 25.